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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Undo It! ~ with credit to Carrie Underwood


Dear Friends,
I'm back (with a photo of my back on my wedding day) to apologize. Sorry to switch gears so drastically from silliness to sadness, but -well- I'm doing it. That's because I'd like to undo it. This piece is a mix of Carrie Underwood's song, Undo it, and my wedding vows.

I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide

So with heart in hand, these were my vows to you:

At the end of our first amazing date, I told you I needed time to take it all in.

I think I need to do that for the rest of our lives.
Our relationship has been so different, in so many wonderful ways, than anything I could have imagined experiencing in this lifetime.

Now I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid games
You’ve asked me many times if I know how much you love me.
Even, and especially, in this moment, I still don’t.
You love me with a full commitment to conquer any and all challenges we face, whatever the cost.

I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face

There’s a perennial and dream like quality to your love.
You stole my happy,

You love me with such a relentlessly generous and tender heart,
you made me cry


without pride or pretense,
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
and without being stifled by fear.

And I wanna undo it
Before you came into my life, I was a hopeless cynic- on a good day.

You had my heart, now I want it back
Your love has somehow transformed me into a woman of faith.
I promise to do my best to carry us through life with this faith that you have unknowingly given me.

I'm starting to see everything you lack
I promise to do my best to keep faith in us,

Boy, you blew it!
that together we can successfully navigate whatever lies ahead.

you put me through it
I promise to do my best to keep faith in your pure intentions, rather than clinging to any shortsighted options of how I think things “should” be.

Now your photos don't have a picture frame
I promise to do my best to remind you of the faith I have in you

And I never say your name
as the sincere, competent, sweet, generous, witty, handsome

and I never will
and all around wonderful man that you are.

Now you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid games
I promise to do my best

You're always gonna be the same
to keep sight of our loving union,

and, oh no, you'll never change
knowing that we are,

You stole my happy,
and always will be,

you made me cry
each other’s destiny.

Took the lonely and took me for a ride
I promise to do my best to express and embody

And I wanna undo it
true, loving faith

You had my heart,
for the rest of our lives.
now I want it back!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywtJYvDBKek

20 comments:

  1. I wasn't able to read the entire post (I tried)...but I did enjoy looking at your pic and imagining me letting down your hair and doing certain things to your back...

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  2. Awww...Carrie really toched upon it....Hi Robyn..its Robin (smartee)from LOL...I had to redirect all of my content from My Insights Blog...long story...this is my new place...Ive been away for a while and looking forward to catching up..talk to you soon..!
    http://mylifeincolour-robinmead.blogspot.com

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  3. Amazing that some songs trigger us like this. I don't know what I would do without music, the memories however, some I would put to side.

    I love all the sides of you!! You share your heart with each post and We are all lucky to receive it!!

    hugs

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  4. I do love that song...I am sorry, however, that it fits that part of your life. *hugs*

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  5. ADSL, thank you! I appreciate the hug. xo

    Blase, it's probably good you weren't there. My new husband might not have been so happy with you. Then again - :0)

    SmArtee/Robin, WELCOME BACK! I missed you. thanks for coming by! xo

    TIS, thank you much and lots of hugs back to you. <-;

    Baygirl, thanks, friend. xo

    BabySis, I love that song too. Thank you. ;o]

    xoRobyn

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  6. How do you do this?!! You are such a creative writer. Hugs to ya....xoxox

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  7. Big cyber {{{{{hugs}}}} to you. I love how you wrote this, I'm just sorry someone as nice as you had to go through it.

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  8. Very cool way to express yourself emotionally and lyrically. I always enjoy these blends of yours. Something tells me there's something cathartic about this one though. Great job!

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  9. loved reading this, great style

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  10. Carie really should just revise the song and use your words instead. Of course, it would involve some re-rhyme work, but it could be done.

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  11. Awww... I feel your pain and it sounds all too familiar. Keep strong.
    All the best,
    Kim

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  12. Mar, thanks so much. You're such a creative lady yourself! xo

    Marnie, that's so sweet and makes me feel good. Thank you! ;0D

    Tgo, definitely cathartic, especially when I get to read these comments. Thank you. xo

    Tracy, thank you! Is your page only on myspace? I'm so bad with this stuff, and can't figure out if I can follow thru google friend connect..? :-)

    Cheeseboy, I agree. I think she should give me her new husband in exchange for these new lyrics, in fact. Yeah, yeah, I'll keep you posted. Thanks for the inspiration! xo

    Teresa, I'm so glad you did too. Your feedback means a lot. <o:

    Kimberly, it's so nice to know someone else understands. I really appreciate it! xo

    Hugs,
    xoRobyn

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  13. I love the way you did this!!

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  14. Robyn, I'm sorry you went through this sadness. But your vows came from a loving heart, and nobody can steal that from you. Your vows will be true for a worthy man who DESERVES them, in your life to come.

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  15. Poignant! Very well expressed. Life is so painful sometimes.

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  16. Very sad! Im not sure how much was the song and how much was yours, but its always sad whe love breaks down.. actually that reminds me of a song..
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=964vwdduZNA&feature=related

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  17. There’s nothing more exciting than watching a Carrie Underwood concert live. It’s amazing and fun; best of all she’s straight up legit in her appearance and style. No one on can match her style and her authenticity on the stage.

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    Carrie Underwood concert

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