Undo It! ~ with credit to Carrie Underwood

Dear Friends,

I'm back (with a photo of my back on my wedding day) to apologize. Sorry to switch gears so drastically from silliness to sadness, but -well- I'm doing it. That's because I'd like to undo it. This piece is a mix of Carrie Underwood's song, Undo it, and my wedding vows.

I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide

So with heart in hand, these were my vows to you:

At the end of our first amazing date, I told you I needed time to take it all in.
I think I need to do that for the rest of our lives.
Our relationship has been so different, in so many wonderful ways, than anything I could have imagined experiencing in this lifetime.

Now I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid games
You’ve asked me many times if I know how much you love me.
Even, and especially, in this moment, I still don’t.
You love me with a full commitment to conquer any and all challenges we face, whatever the cost.

I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face

There’s a perennial and dream like quality to your love.
You stole my happy,

You love me with such a relentlessly generous and tender heart,
you made me cry

without pride or pretense,
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
and without being stifled by fear.

And I wanna undo it
Before you came into my life, I was a hopeless cynic- on a good day.

You had my heart, now I want it back
Your love has somehow transformed me into a woman of faith.
I promise to do my best to carry us through life with this faith that you have unknowingly given me.

I'm starting to see everything you lack
I promise to do my best to keep faith in us,

Boy, you blew it!
that together we can successfully navigate whatever lies ahead.

you put me through it
I promise to do my best to keep faith in your pure intentions, rather than clinging to any shortsighted options of how I think things “should” be.

Now your photos don't have a picture frame
I promise to do my best to remind you of the faith I have in you

And I never say your name
as the sincere, competent, sweet, generous, witty, handsome

and I never will
and all around wonderful man that you are.

Now you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid games
I promise to do my best

You're always gonna be the same
to keep sight of our loving union,

and, oh no, you'll never change
knowing that we are,

You stole my happy,
and always will be,

you made me cry
each other’s destiny.

Took the lonely and took me for a ride
I promise to do my best to express and embody

And I wanna undo it
true, loving faith

You had my heart,
for the rest of our lives.
now I want it back!

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